and all i want

ure all i want

ive been waiting

king of my heart

body & soul 

to be honest i haven’t been on tumblr for too long but i really need to talk about my day because it was absolutely terrible

my great grandma seized and died in front of me

she was grey

i don’t even know what to write anymore to be honest

it was just like this whole th ing

my parents and i  came home from costco and we were eating dinner

and her caretaker ran in to tell us she had another seizure

so my parents ran to her house

and i sat at home thinking it would be like any other day

that she’s going to be ok 

so i sat at home and i just kept eating dinner

then i heard more people yelling and screaming outside

so i called my mom to see if everything ok

and she told me to call the police

i called the police and by the fucking way…  u would think the cops would pick up when u call 911 but no.. i was on hold. like ok

i ran over there while i was on the phone and the medical technician asked me if she was breathing/if i hear a heartbeat but i couldn’t even focus because my aunts and grandma were stomping all over the floor freaking out (she was laying on the floor), but i knew she was gone

her entire face was just grey and her tongue was not pink anymore

the medical technician then told me that if you pinch someone after they seize usually they wake up

i pinched her as hard as i could

her frail little body

and she didn’t wake up

after the police came and i stepped outside 

and just prayed

i told myself that this isn’t it

this is not how she is going to go.

my cousin picked me up and we went all the way to the hospital

and the look on everyones faces is definitely something I’m never going to forget

we all knew she was gone

idk and then basically we went to dunkin to distract my mom from crying and my cousin whispered to me that she died 

and i had to keep myself together for my mom because she didn’t know and she was sitting with the caretaker trying to be optimistic

and while i was ordering the coffee i started breaking down and the guy just handed me the coffee for free

lol

but no worries i gave him the card.. it was sweet of him though

the rest of the night i just don’t want to talk about

pauliinaonaccutane:

You don’t need to contour your face, because you already have a line of hyperpigmentation on your cheekbones